The meaning of love in my mind

Love is that certain

strong feeling you get from someone.

who is incredible,perfect,and so right in your mind...

Someone you're certain

you can't live without.

You've touched my heart for a long time before,

but now i will never be the same again.

我对你的思念

两天了,

我的眼泪还是流的不停.

因为我觉得我失去了一些东西,

是一些得不回的东西.

每当突然想到你时,

我都会忍不住掉下了泪水,

我承认我的心很脆弱,

但只是为了你才会脆弱,

其他女子我从不!

今天一整天做事老是心不在焉的.

老是在想着跳楼自杀,

可是我没有勇气,

我...

还想看到你得到你的幸福的家庭,

完美的生活,

我才甘心.

和你在一起的时候,

我真的很快乐,

每次故意弄你生气你都会和我撒娇,

过后我又和你请求原谅.

这种感觉真爽.

可是久了过后,

这种行为令你觉得很无聊.

有时你还会骂我,

我了解,

人相处久了当然会厌的.

还记得以前我们在一起的时候,

我有一直地问你毕业了我们要怎么办?

你每次都很不认真地回答了我.

你知道我怕什么吗?

读完了高二,

我妈叫我去新加坡读书呀!

我怕和你分开呀!

你明白吗?

算了.

你给我的相片我还放在我钱包里.

我不会丢掉,

我想纪念我人生中最爱的人的样子 =)

你送给我的香水我会用着,

一直的用着,

就算用完了我会去买.

因为你曾经说过你很喜欢这个味道.

我们的戒子,

很抱歉,

上次我和朋友打架时弄跌了,

当我回去一直找一直找,

我还是找不到.

我一直没和你说是因为怕你生气,

也许你也在心里说为什么要生气,

那一点也不重要,

我只想说对不起.

我也知道Facebook里很男子喜欢你,

可是我每次都只是暗示你罢了,

我知道如果我问你,

你会说我很烦,

或者说我想太多,

可是每次我暗示你的男子都被我猜中吧?

对不起,

我的吃醋心很重,

因为我想你发现有人在暗恋你,

你老是不知道有人在暗恋你的.

况且我只是对你才会吃醋吧?

我未曾经为过我的前女友吃醋过你知道吗?

因为什么?

因为我太爱你了!!!

我曾经答应你说我不会再吃醋,

这都是我暂时答应你的诺言,

当你深爱一个人的时候,

不会为他吃醋是假的吧?

我愿意为你牺牲一切,

而你呢?

老是都说不.

这证明你不是很爱我吧?

我和你之间的爱情故事将要变成一张废纸了.

我也不会忘记我和你之间的爱情故事的.

一直到永远.

我爱你...

这是我和你之间的最后一句话.

你看了请别block 我,
看了过后,我不会再烦你了.
刚才的事情我都没怪你了啦.
我说了,别太在乎我是独生子可以吗?
拥有你就是我的幸福!
那如果你和其他不是独生子的人结婚就不会破坏他的幸福吗?
你也说了,
医生说你的病很有可能不会好,
但是依然还有一点机会吧?
我愿意花钱来给你治病!
不论多少!
不够我就赚!赚到够为止!

我现在也没管你管的太紧了吧?
我还会有一点关心你是为了不想像今天的事情发生!
而且不是我特地去查你,
是那个男子的朋友告诉我的嘛.
还有,面子书跟踪不是我做新的,
我只是借借我的朋友的.
我那么做只是不想你在外面又有其他的吧?
你认为你会安心当不知到你的男友在外面有没有其他女子吗?
我可以说,以前的你,可以.

和你拍拖三年了,
我知道我每次为了一些伤心事而哭,
我哭不代表我脆弱,
我有我的苦冲,
我为你哭的是我爱你的泪水.
别的女子我有为她哭过吗?

我借其他人的主网和用自己的有什么分别呢?
如果我没注意你,
那现在你还在和那个男的在联络吧?
这全都是我的错吗?
我的心真的没变,
我的心依然还爱着你吧?
如果我的心变了?我还会爱你三年吗?
我真的只想拥有你,其他的真的没感觉.这我和你说了很多次了吧?
我吃醋是因为太爱你了,我的全部前女友我真的没为她们吃醋过,
在此,我也要对她们说对不起.
这三年对我来说真的不够,我真的想和你到永远.
如果分开可以让你冷静,我愿意.
人生那么久,等你几年算什么?
以前你那么伤我不只一次了,可是到头来,我还是爱你吧?
我真的爱你.
可以给的我都给了你,
你要什么我给什么.
如果大家不可以在一起,那就祝福你找到一个比我好几百倍的吧.
也许过了几年我会在报帐上看到你和你的丈夫的相片呢.
当时的我,一定又再哭泣了.
你给我的东西我会依然保留着,
希望你也是.
我爱你.

It's a rainy day

Hi everybody,long time no write blog le huh?Everythings is changed on my life.I'm having my single life now =) I'm so down after that...but after a few months,single brings me a happier life,no need to take care about her things,no power to jelous who she talk with...haha,let's talk about it next time,so busy at shop.Bye my friends :)

What are you thinking right now?

今天是第二天我们没找对方了.有时我真的不明白你在想什么?你的一句我对你闷了,没感觉要拍拖了,就是你最完美的句子.我真的不知道我还可以怎样对你了,我和你讲话时你就大大声的回答我,甚至还在大厅广众的地方骂我,你这么做你认为我还要面子的吗?那天关与你的钥匙的事情我只是和你开玩笑罢了,你需要生气我老半天吗?练舞的时候,教练派我在你的背后的时候,我真的不明白!为什么你对我做那种反眼的眼神!!!摆脱!全不人都在看着好吗?如过你那么不爽我就告诉我啦!你没必要做出那种眼神的!这几天我在学校都有默默的锁定着你,我只看见你和你的男性或女性朋友都玩得非常高兴.也许朋友在你的心目中确实是比我重要的.

Swt...

妳真的还爱我吗?

如过是的话那妳为什么要对我那么的冷漠呢?

以前的妳会发一封体贴的短讯给我,但现在的妳只会发一封短短的短讯给我.

妳甚至对妳的朋友还好过我了.

妳说我给妳压力?

如果妳以前没有做一些对不起我的事我现在会那么的管你吗?

我那么管你只是不想妳像以前那样伤我的心你明白吗?

下课时间要陪妳的朋友就算了,但在放学过后不必对我那么冷漠吧?

无论如何我还是不会开口说要分手的.

因为我真的太爱妳了华婉雯.

我真的想和妳到永远,

可是我不知道有没有这个机会呢?

真爱?

爱情是没有"永远"这个字的存在的.

当你和你的爱人在一起拍拖

,就算你愿意和你的爱人永远的在一起,

但对方也不一定会真正的和你到永远.

I would like to change my attitude for her

Yesterday she finally told me that the reason that she angry me

because i didn't tell her about the person is my ex-girlfriend automatically.

When i hear about that,

i really don't know why she will angry me of this.

If she ask me sure i will tell her about my ex-girlfriend no matter all of it,

but she didn't ask me before lor...haiz

Impossible a person will suddenlly say about those not important de thing without asking de mar...

Hmm...and i really dunno why she don't want to change back her status on facebook...

she told me that she wants to change the status to single...

When i ask her why...

She tells me in two words:

For siok.

This two words really hurt me deeply at the time...

I really don't know...

she says she still love me then why she wants to change the status into single?

Early in the morning she wakes me up with a sweet smile...

I'm feeling very happy about that...

but i keep think dao the way she scold me last night

No longer...she is busy and go to works at her dad's shop.

When after training badminton,i went back home.

The first things i do is switch my computer on and check on what's the news that about her on facebook...

Suddenlly,my heart feels like breaking...

i saw her comment on my friend's profile...

she says to my friend that she was single...

and looking for a boyfriend to marry...

The words makes my mind suddenlly blank!

I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHY SHE WANTS TO SAY LIKE THAT TO HER FRIENDS!

ANYONE OF YOU?CAN TELL ME ABOUT THE REASON?

After that,one of my friends give me some advise...

he tells me that i have to trust in my girlfriend....

believe in her no matter what...

I promised myself to changed my attitude to her...

I have promised myself to love her forever too...

Although i'm still dunno is that she really loves me...

but i must try to believe in her...

-The end-

10/6/10

Writen on 1.43 a.m.

What a Moody day!

I'm sad...last night i have cry for a girl that i love again.I can't sleep well,i can't read my oral script for the oral test on tomorrow.I spent a whole night to thinking myself what i have done to make her so angry.I think and think...thinking about what we have quarrel about...For all the boy in the worlds,can you accept your girlfriend wearing his ex-boyfriend t-shirt?But i can't live without her,she is the only girl that makes me feel that my life is valuable to staying in the world.So i decided to apologies to her when i'm talking phone with her in the night...i said that all of it was my fault.But she was sick,she is getting fever,this makes my heart feeling more painful.After that i call her to takes some panadol from her mom and try to sleep earlier.Early in the morning when i wakes up,my eyes was reddening and i look at my phone,i thought she will send me a morning call,she did this everyday before we quarrel.When i arrived school,some of my friends keep looking at my eyes...they ask me what happened on me last night...but i didn't tell them...i just act nothing happened.Suddenlly,i miss her.i send her a message,she told me that she is busying...so i didn't disturb her at the time...Grrring~the school's bells have been rang...i look at my phone...i still didn't received any message from her...i'm thinking is that she is still angry at me?or she don't love me anymore?after that she send me a message...all the message that she send to me makes me felt so cold...i felt very fed-up,i didn't reply her message afterthat.But afterthat i keep worry about will she send me back a message?.About an hour later,i received a message that she send to me.The message shows that she was in a good mood,the message makes me feel very happy.I guess she have been forgive me =)

-The End-

My wrong?

Today i'm sad....my girlfriend did something wrong to me...but she don't wants to admit it...she didn't reply my message start from last night...she didn't answer my phone...i really don't know why she rather quarrel with me because of that cloth....why she must keep it?